depression

[The Sith Apprentice[MOD]of'08]

im not how you guys gonna react to this thread.

but have anyone of you have depression?
anyone of you have dealt with depression?

i have depression. and i have been going through some of it last week, and a bit this week. i also suffer from anxiety.

again, im not sure how you guys gonna react to this thread, two outcomes are going through my mind right now.
and
both of them are not good.

I have experience a bad experience with me saying that i deal with depression and anxiety with another star wars related group, and i have gotten myself banned, and some of them in that group are at bad terms and i feel it is all my fault.

im crying currently as i type this because i don't know what you guys will think of me now.

i guess thats all on my mind right now. i don't know what else to say.

[Sith Lord]

I've never ahd to deal with anything like that, but, try to keep yourself busy. Do what makes you happy. ;D
You need to go to Frank and Son again.

Hang in there buddy I'm here for you.

[ladysythe]

Depression. I know it all too well. I've dealt with it my entire life. All I can do is just keep going forward, no matter how hard life can get. Just keep kicking your feet, take a deep breath and just think that tomorrow might be a better day

Don't fret, depression is natural and everyone has their moments. Your friends are your friends because they care and listen to you when you need to most. And though I've never met any of you... my sensitivity and kind heart makes me respond to people when life seems at their worst... So, I'm replying to you to let you know you are not alone and everyone here who knows you well enough cares. We SW junkies have to stick together

Just take it easy, do something that relaxes you or keeps your ind occupied. I foresee things will straighten themselves out nd life will be better for you. And don't forget you're not the only one suffering from life's troubles

Take care and I wish you well,

LadySythe

[RamZnation]

Torlin. Feel free to send me a PM.

You know. Forget the PM.
I'll just say it. It might even help me.


My depression started back in 2002. It all started when my girfriend at the time died after 2 week coma from a car accident. I blamed myself for the accident since I told her to come down to L.A. visit me. She was living up north in San Jose. Her sister told me when the Ambulance showed up, she was unconcious and in a tight fist was holding a promise ring with my name engraved. It took me years to get over it (the depression) and to this day it still bothers me. After some therapy and talks with her family I knew it was time to move on.

In 2003, I lost 3 really good friends out in Iraq.

My following girlfriend after back stabbed me. After a year of dating seriously, I felt I was ready to pop her the question. I felt more of a conection with her than with my previous girlfriend the one I mentioned in the top paragraph since we were living together. I even bought her a ring. One day I got home from work and fond her crying. She told me she had been sleeping with one of my best friends while I was at work for the past 2 weeks. I forgave her, and told her not to speak with him since she wanted to work things out. I was still in the Marines (reservist)at the time and I went overseas for a training deployment for a month. I left on that deployment a few weeks after the incident and during that time form the day she told me to the day I left she found the ring and wanted to keep it. 2 weeks into the deployment I call her up, and she said she had just married my so called friend. I told her to pack what ever she had in our appartment lock the door and leave the key under the door and the ring.

WHen I got back her stuff was gone, but the apartment was a disaster. I was furious! I cleaned up the apartment and gave a 2 weeks notice in breaking the lease. The next day I went to the Santa Monica pier for some fresh air and time to reflect. I also Chucked that ring into the ocean because I had no reason to keep it.

A couple months after that, still upset about it I had my accident. I broke my Ankle and was on bed rest for 9 months (it took me 6 months before I could walk again).

I was very depressed after all that BS in my life, infact I was even suicidal for a period, but I thought to myself I am better than that. If any of you seen the "Haggard" movie, I was like Ryan Dunn's character.

Anywho, during that time I realized that Star Wars was what took my mind off things that were going on in my life. It set my imagination off, and made me feel like I could go away into that universe. I've always been a fan, but not a die hard fanboy. I came out of the closet so to speak and was officially a Star Wars Nerd/Geek. I guess I considered my self in the same way as Anakin did in ROTS. He turned to the Darkside, and I turned into a fanboy. ;D

Well, I don't want to bore you guys with the Drama in my life but just know that that I too have been depressed and I can say is to find a Happy medium that can take your mind off of things that make you feel down. A great example would be little Dominic. He's been really upset with his illness and those of us that went to visit him know exactly what I am talking about. When we were there his spirits uplifted him and he was smiles for the rest of the day. He's also been feeling great since many people have been sending him care packages, calling him, etc. I know because I talked to him yesterday.

To make a long story short. Just find a Happy medium that will take your mind off things. Just like Marius said. We're all a family at LAjedi with many common interests. Don't worry about getting baned, bro. You're part of the family and families help each other. Just start a conversation with anyone of us and see where it goes.

-RamZ

[gileanofgrey]

First, of all we would not ban you nor chastise you due to your malady. If anything we would try our best if we can to help you in any way we can. You will always be welcomed to class so do not concern yourself with that.

Second, no one but yourself can find the strenght to get past your depression. People say that pills, and or therapy helps. I feel it does not. I believe it is based on your strenght of will. For you torlin you are a good guy with a good heart. That grants strenght and honor...enough for you to fight this...is it going to be easy? Of course not...but that is life.

Lastly, I must agree with marius in that you must do what you feel you must. No one can make any decisions for you, in the end...it falls solely on you.

[wolverine]

hey brother, Scott here(wolverine).Don't worry about your depression as something out of the normal,because believe it or not we all get depressed one time or another. Most of us carry to much pride to show it or talk of it.With my past depression all I could do to lightin it is to recall all the good days and good times knowing that they will return again.

[The Abbot of LA Jedi]

I'm very sorry you are going through depression.
I had had a kind of f**ked up life myself,lost many loved ones and have had many broken hearts & dreams..

But I overcome.
I want you to do yourself a favor and go and rent "Power of attraction" on dvd..

It really changed my outlook and attitude in life..

Sure i say all the time like is 10% and 90% pain.
But what don`t kill you makes you stronger..


If you ever need someone to talk to hit me up anytime.

[Tyrian "the Ghost" Kell]

Hey Torlin, I know I'm still new to the group, but I don't think anyone would ban you due to depression. If they did, they'd have to ban me and several others as well. Depression and anxiety disorder runs on my mothers side of the family, and I got is as well. I think one of the reasons we all love Star Wars and LAJedi is that it provides a temporary escape from alot of the real world crap we all deal with. Todays world is a breeding ground for depression and anxiety, and the best way to deal with it is to talk, be active and spend time with people who care and understand. I've got your back brother, as I'm sure everyone else who has responded does. Feel free to message me anytime.

Eliot

[The Sith Apprentice[MOD]of'08]

ive been wanting to reply but i couldn't find something nice to say...

the only thing i can say is;

i hate feeling this way and that even though people say it will go away and stuff, some people experience depression on a regular basis, and no it won't go away.

people just say nice things so we are made to feel better, or give people hugs to make them feel special.

ive been in a mental hospital for over a year because i was depressed and suicidal.

but id just would say thanks for the support.

[Sith Lord]

Thats what friends ;D do for each other.

[gforce]

Torlin I second that and I went throught a major depression in the late 80's that lasted 2 years, Oh I would go to my Job but the rest of the time I would hardly ever leave the house and no matter what my friend s tried it continued. But as they say Time Heals all Wounds and when things are at there worst, you can only get better from there.